Personal Testimonial in serving full time for God in the future!

This will be my testimonial the days and time i have experienced from 14 years till now (20yrs old).

I still remember roughly the age of 13 to 14 where i heard lots of christian gospel groups or solo sang for god. That is the period where im curious and also start to search my hidden gifts that is given my God. At that point of time, i was very interested in music & dance. But i didn't know how to sing & dance etc.. So i was hoping to one day be those people whom i watch in performance or in church that they can glorify god through musical gifts (sing & dance) etc.

As i grew up spiritually & maturely, i began to ask around people to sing on how they sing.. the techniques... But in the end i didn't learn... So back then i remember at the age of 16 (year 2004) during Christmas period, a sister in christ in church asked me whether i wanted to play a role in the act as i like to act on stage for people and God. So i agreed! At that period of time, i didn't realised i need to sing too so when i sing during rehearsals, i thought that im voice was nice, but lots of people who know how to sing commented me plus wanted to teach me how.. but i still didn't got it right and so the christmas concert just goes on... After that, i was so fustrated with myself as why i have passion for music and wanted to glorify God through music(voice), but why just can't i do it well and etc... blamng myself.

Nevertheless, i kept attending lots of music gospel rallies and concerts to listen people on how to sing etc... lots and lots. I never gave up but still searching too WHETHER is music the gift from God even though i "can't" sing etc... I told the pastors in my church after it and they prayed for me and helped me in some ways or another.

God is gracious and loving! He opened a path for me to discove rmy FIRST gift which was... dance... In year christmas 2006, one day after sunday service, auntie Jane passed by and asked whether am i interested in DANCE and which to perform in Christmas 2006 GRAND CONCERT? im shocked at the point of time and without further a do, i AGREED! 3 HARD MONTHS of rehearsing and practices etc... under Gerard Raj the choregrapher and etc... Got scoldings... naggings.... happy times and sad times.. etc.. Lots of people around me noticed that i have that "THING" which is FEXIBLE which a lot of people don't have that i do have. They told me and said that i dance very well till now after lots of concerts, competitions, church events etc and attending courses. I thank GOD that through people's encourage, i felt God is telling me that this is indeed the gift that he gave it to me. Nevertheless... i have being dancing for HIM and HIMalone for almost 3 years and still dancing plus improving and learning new stuffs! (Major in Ballroom, Street Jazz, Lyrical Jazz, Hip Hop, Modern & Contemp). I also stepped ahead and became quite a few event's choregrapher. I thank God for that!

Knowing that i still searching one more is my voice... I also know that i really would want to serve God whole heartedly after all the years of teachings in church and in my fellowship. I placed in this WORLD in to testify and to glorify God. I really sometimes prayer hard that hoping i can serve him full time which my voice & dance & worship. It seems that im not really interested in any type of jobs or course or the course which im studying. Even i LIKE to study design, but i know myself that i wun stay long in this line as i have not much interest in WORKING in this line. But whenever about SING & dance for GOD, i always have this excitment. i just don't why.

There is two periods when i have OFFERED my life to God in serving him in the near future full time. The first is the Chinese Baptist Transmission conference 2007 @ ACS bakar Rd the church and another missionary conference @ St. Andrew's Catheral in early year 2008. What i can say was that I felt peaceful and no fear in stepping out to be prayed or to serve him. Both of the conference.. when the pastors called the bros & sis to come forth for those who are touched my the holy spirit or wanted to serve him... i at that point, i felt it and darely step out with joy to serve him. I truely know THIS IS WHAT I WANT in the near future and god gave us a choice too plus i know some how or rather, God use people to tell me is as a form of calling from him. I thank God for that.

Ps Ivy also helped me a lot a lot, God is gracious to let ps ivy to help me find a beloed teached to guide, train me etc... in Voice and spiritual too. Been 1 year already and im STILL equiping myself for the near future. I have offered my life to him and to serve him FULLY in worship, SING & DANCE and also to spread the gospel to people. I have also shared all this to all my pastors in the church. They know and have been praying for me too!

This are the three things which im equiping :

1. Spiritually with God (spiritua Growth)
2. Music ( Voice,dance )
3. Leadership

yups! So of coz now i will continue to study.... as the same time balancing which church stuffs and the equiping thingys! Pls pray for me! a Worship/Music Pastor is what im equiping for it now for God!